Wednesday, February 27, 2008

First Fire – Going to the Altar

I have been going to First United Methodist’s First Fire @ Movies 9; they have a worship service from 9 am – 10 am on Sunday mornings.
The Pastor is James Williams, who is excellent, every week that I have attended service and listened to him preach no matter what the message is, it always applies to my life. A new worship experience is the motto and it is so true. It is a comfortable atmosphere - you can wear jeans – you don’t have to be in a church to worship the lord and First Fire proves that point. Anyone who is not dedicated to a church or feels like there is something more you need.
I invite you to come just once they have a wonderful band and perform a skit as well as a sermon, you can feel the energy of God in this place and it is still with you once you leave and head home.

I started attending First Fire in November before I knew anything was wrong with Colt, my sister Stacy invited me to go, she said you have to come just once that’s all I ask. Bless her for asking me! The first time I went it was a spiritual uplifting and awakening experience and it has been that way ever since. It only took that one time and I felt it, the faith, the love, the presence of God.

After I found out about Colt’s condition, I knew I had the love and support of our family and friends, but I needed something else.

One Sunday @ First Fire when James asked for those who are lost or need prayer to come to the front row that was used as an altar, I humbly walked up to the front, for the first time in my life I was not ashamed to go to the altar to ask the Lord for help. I was going up for Bradley, me, and for our baby boy Colt.

My dad walked with me to the front, so thankful that he did because I was scared. A wonderful member of the church named Bill prayed for us as well as James the preacher. I saw Bill the other day at service and he said that Colt and I have been heavy on his heart and that he prays for us daily. You know God exists when people you have met only once or have known a lifetime put you in their prayers.

We are so blessed!

Bradley and my cousin on his side (Carolyn) sent me a message with theses verses and said they are Tough words but they have carried me thru everything tough and also everything wonderful in my life!!

Thanks Carolyn!!! I adore you and am so thankful to call you family and a true friend.

I Thessalonians 5: 16, 17, 18.

It is tough to do what God asks of us sometimes. But you already do what He tells us in the verses. Be joyful always....Pray Continuously.........Give THANKS in ALL circumstances, for this is God's will for you.....
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Special Thank you to all our friends and family who have read our blog and posted comments.
It is because of you we are going to make it through this!
Your prayers are so appreciated.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Mom

I received this email from a friend I thought it was really cute


A baby asked God, 'They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?'God said, 'Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you.'The child further inquired, 'But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy.'God said, 'Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you and you will feel your angel's love and be very happy.'Again the child asked, 'And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?' God said, 'Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.''And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?' God said, 'Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray.''Who will protect me?' God said, 'Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life.''But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.' God said, 'Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you.'At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, 'God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name.'

God said, You will simply call her, 'Mom.'

Monday, February 11, 2008

A Night of Hope - Cincinnati, OH


Sunday 2/10/08


My mom, dad, and little sister got tickets to see Joel Osteen and invited me to come. He is such an amazing and inspirational speaker. I feel like I was supposed to be there. One of the thinks Joel talked about that stuck with me was Thoroughbred horses and how a little Colt may come out looking weak, but he is a winner he came from a long line of champions and that he is strong and we are all made from God. As he said that my mom, dad, and little sis(Lindsey) looked at me and smiled. I was meant to be in that very place that night and hear those words so I would know to look to God for strength and hope. I will continue to be strong for my little Colt.


* With God all things are possible.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Back to the High – Risk OBGYN visit


Thursday 2/7/08
We followed back up with Dr. Campbell today, Bradley could not go so I asked my mom to go with me, and we received some good news!
The amnio results came back normal, stating: No evidence of clinically significant numerical or structural chromosome abnormalities.
Thank Heavens!
I felt guilty that the results were normal, since there are other mothers who get the opposite results. I was so thankful. My mom got to see the ultrasound and Colt was showing off and moving like crazy, his heart beat is still strong 148/bpm and he has gained 4 ounces now weighing approximately 14 ounces ( 2 oz. more than a canned pop) lol.

Dr. Campbell said they are still going to continue to monitor Colt closely for congestive heart failure since as he gets bigger his heart will demand more blood and work harder. Even though I did not want to hear that part of it and it hurt to have my mom hear it too. I said my faith is strong and we are going to make it through this.

Next appointments: Dr. Campbell and Dr. Cottrill 3/4/08.

And so our journey begins…..

* I remembering when we found we were pregnant I never prayed to god for a healthy baby because I did not want to be selfish, I did ask God to bless us with a baby that was healthy as it can be. For this I am grateful, he is already a miracle.


About Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS)

Resource: http://www.cincinnatichildrens.org/health/heart-encyclopedia/anomalies/hlhs.htm
What is Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome?
Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS) is one of the most complex cardiac defects seen in the newborn and remains probably the most challenging to manage of all congenital heart defects. It is one of a group of cardiac anomalies that can be grouped together under the description "single ventricle" defects.
In a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, all of the structures on the left side of the heart (the side which receives oxygen-rich blood from the lungs and pumps it out to the body) are severely underdeveloped.
The mitral and aortic valves are either completely "atretic" (closed), or they are very small. The left ventricle itself is tiny, and the first part of the aorta is very small, often only a few millimeters in diameter.
This results in a situation where the left side of the heart is completely unable to support the circulation needed by the body's organs, though the right side of the heart (the side that delivers blood to the lungs) is typically normally developed.
Blood returning from the lungs to the left atrium must pass through an atrial septal defect (ASD) to the right side of the heart.
The right ventricle must then do a "double duty" of pumping blood both to the lungs (via the pulmonary artery) and out to the body (via a patent ductus arteriosus (PDA)). The patent ductus arteriosus, a normal structure in the fetus, is often the only pathway through which blood can reach the body from the heart. When the ductus arteriosus begins to close, as it typically does in the first days of life, the blood flow to the body will severely diminish resulting in dangerously low blood flow to vital organs and leading to shock. Without treatment, Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome is uniformly fatal, often within the first hours or days of life.
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Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome signs and symptoms
As mentioned above, infants with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome can develop life-threatening shock when the ducutus arteriosus begins to close. In most cases, however, the ductus arteriosus is widely open at the time of birth, supplying the blood flow to the body and babies may not be diagnosed right away. As the ductus arteriosus closes, which it typically will in most infants in the first hours or days of life, the perfusion to the body is seriously diminished and shock rapidly ensues.
Newborns with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome will typically have lower-than-normal oxygen saturations. This is because all of the blood from the lungs (the oxygenated "red" blood) mixes together in the single right ventricle before being pumped out of the lungs and body. Cyanosis, therefore, may be the first clue to the presence of a serious underlying cardiac condition. Respiratory distress (difficult or fast breathing) is often present because the lungs will tend to receive an excessively large amount of blood flow. There is often no or just a faint murmur present in newborns with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome.
The pulses may be very weak in all extremities on examination depending on flow through the ducturs arteriosus. Lethargy, poor feeding, and worsening respiratory distress may be seen as the ducturs arteriosus closes. Ultimately, severe shock resulting in seizures, renal failure, liver failure, and worsening cardiac function may develop. Whether these problems are reversible depends on both the severity and the duration of shock.
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How Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome is diagnosed
This heart defect is one of the most readily diagnosed on fetal echocardiograms and is one of the most common cardiac defects picked up on screening obstetrical ultrasounds. Such early diagnosis of the anomaly allows for prompt intervention for stabilization at the time of birth so that severe shock may be avoided.
Planning to deliver such an infant at a hospital capable of aggressive newborn resuscitation is important in improving the chances for a good outcome.
Echocardiography is the principal method of diagnosing Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. It can give detailed information of the anatomy of the various cardiac structures affected in Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, as well as important information about the function of the right ventricle and its valves the size of the atrial septal defect (important for blood mixing) and the size of the patent ductus arteriosus.
Cardiac catheterization is almost never needed for newborns with this heart defect as part of the initial evaluation due to the high risks in an often unstable newborn. Catheterization, though, does play an important role in the evaluation of the cardiopulmonary function and anatomy in older children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome while planning for later stages in the treatment.
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Hypoplastic Left Syndrome treatment
The management of the newborn with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome can be divided into the initial stabilization period and the operative / post-operative period.
Even while diagnostic tests may be going on, the rapid stabilization of infants with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome must begin as soon as the diagnosis is suspected.
Catheters are placed, usually in the umbilical blood vessels, which allow medications to be given and blood to be obtained for testing. An infusion of prostaglandin, a medication that prevents the patent ductus arteriosus from closing, is begun, thus maintaining the pathway for blood to reach the body from the right ventricle.
Even though the infant may have low oxygen saturations, supplemental oxygen is avoided since it tends to promote more blood flow to the lungs which may steal blood flow from the body and place excessive demands on the already stressed single right ventricle.
Manipulations of medications and respiratory treatments (including possible mechanical ventilation) are performed to optimally balance the flow of blood to the body and the flow of blood to the lungs.
Close monitoring is essential to detect any organ dysfunction and maintain cardiopulmonary stability because infants with this anomaly may be very unpredictable and undergo quite sudden changes.
There are essentially three treatment options that have been proposed for children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome.
In the past, due to poor outcomes with available treatments at that time, no treatment was often recommended. Today it is rare that a family may choose not to treat a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, though in cases when the infant is unable to be satisfactorily stabilized no treatment may be advised.
Cardiac transplantation in the newborn period is performed as primary treatment for Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome at some centers in this country. While transplantation has the advantage of replacing the very abnormal heart of a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome with one of normal structure, this treatment is limited by the scarcity of newborn organs available for transplantation and the life-long need for anti-rejection therapy. Additionally, although outcomes for transplantation continue to improve, and the incidence of rejection is lowest in patients transplanted as newborns, the average life span of the transplanted heart is limited (currently less than 15 years).
The most commonly pursued treatment for Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome is "staged reconstruction" in which a series of operations, usually three, are performed to reconfigure the child's cardiovascular system to be as efficient as possible despite the lack of an adequate left ventricle. These surgeries do not correct the lesion, and are instead considered "palliative".
The first operation in the staged approach is known as the Norwood operation and is typically performed in the first week of life. With the Norwood operation, the right ventricle become the systemic or main ventricle pumping to the body. A "new" or "neo" aorta is made from part of the pulmonary artery and the original, tiny aorta, which is reconstructed / enlarged to provide blood flow to the body. Finally, to provide blood flow to the lungs, a small tube graft is placed either from an artery to the lung vessels (called a modified Blalock-Taussig shunt) or from the right ventricle to the lung vessels (called a Sano modification). Because of the extensive reconstruction of the aorta that must be done, this operation is one of the most challenging heart surgeries in pediatrics.
The subsequent operations in the staged reconstruction plan are the bi-directional Glenn procedure, typically done at 3 to 6 months of age, and the Fontan operation, typically done in children older than 2 or 3 years. These operations are described in more detail in the Heart Encyclopedia chapter on "Single Ventricle Cardiac Anomalies."
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Results with staged reconstruction for children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome / Norwood operation
The Norwood operation is the most complex and highest risk procedure in the sequence of staged reconstruction for Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. Current management at major pediatric heart centers has resulted in survival rates of 75 percent or better.
The recovery period in the hospital following the Norwood operation is often unpredictable and complicated, averaging about 3 to 4 weeks. A small percentage of patients who leave the hospital may continue to experience significant problems in the first months of life.
Occasionally, the right ventricle does not function well following the Norwood operation and in some case, cardiac transplantation may need to be considered.
If a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome reaches the time for the second stage (about 4 to 6 months of age) without major complications, the survival through the Glenn and Fontan operations are much better, exceeding 90 percent with current methods.
Almost all children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome will continue to need some cardiac medications to maximize the efficient function of their heart, and all will require regular periodic follow-up visits with their cardiologist to evaluate their cardiac function and detect late complications such as arrhythmias.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

The Pediatric Cardiologist

Tuesday 2/5/08
The day came to visit the pediatric cardiologist and I was still hopeful that today we would get better news. Again there was the scared and helpless feeling when we entered the specialists office, Bradley was right there by my side as he had been from the beginning of all this, he went ahead and went into the ultrasound room as I had to make one last stop to the potty since a pregnant woman often times becomes a member of the FBI aka(Federal Bathroom Inspector) and has to pee at least twice at every place she goes. Bradley was already seated in the room as I made my way in and I noticed this little old lady in a wheel chair, I was thinking to myself, did they put us in the wrong room, nope this was our pediatric cardiologist, Dr. Cottrill who is probably in her early 70’s. She was warm and sincere as she watched the ultrasound and studied his heart and how it was functioning, I could see the look of concern in her eyes. Bradley wiped the tears from my eyes as they finished the ultrasound and fetal echocardiogram. I sat up and Dr. Cottrill said that Colt has a congenital heart defect called Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS). I had already done some research and I remembered reading about this defect and was so relieved when Dr. Campbell said Aortic Stenosis and not Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome since the information I read on (HLHS) was even more serious then the Aortic Stenosis. As Dr. Cottrill explained the defect and explained that there are 3 reconstructive open heart surgeries that are done to redirect the blood flow using the Right Ventricle of the heart as the main supply to the body. She continued to explain that the 1st surgery will be done right after the baby is born, then the 2nd around 6 months of age, and the 3rd ranging from 1 ½ - 3 years old. I was trying to let it all sink in that instead of our little Colt having 1 surgery on his heart is going to have to have 3. I asked where will he being having surgery thinking it would be in another state.

Dr. Cottrill said that UK just recently got a surgeon who transferred from California who specializes in this surgery…..Amen some good news, if all goes well we won’t have to be away from home to have the baby. She said when I get further along we will meet with the surgeon and he will explain everything more in detail and that she will see us again in a month to monitor the babies progress. After we got out of the pediatric cardiologist office Bradley called his mom and I called my mom and we both explained what was going on and the news of the UK surgeon who recently transferred to the hospital who specializes in this surgery.


*God works in mysterious ways.