Friday, December 19, 2008

Heart Cath Results







The Heart Cath went very smooth, there were no blockages and the cardiologists were satified with the results.




Other than a little groggy, wanting to be close to me and Bradley and really hungry afterwards Colt did fantastic, he didn't even have to get any pain meds.




We found out yesterday that Colt will go to his surgeon Dr. Plunkett on Jan. 12 th to be evaluated and surgery is scheduled for Wednesday Jan. 28 th.



Thanks be to God for giving us an extra special Christmas.






God Bless!








Monday, December 15, 2008

Heart Cath


Wanted to drop a few lines to give and update, everything has been going great with Colt , each and everyday has been a blessing and we are always giving thanks to God for the gift we have been given.

He is so sweet and such a good baby, he sleeps all through the night, I have been reading bible stories and my other favorite "God Gave Us you" every night and singing him to sleep (no I can't sing) but he likes me singing to him anyways!

When he wakes up in the morning he is so excited, my day is already complete seeing those beaming eyes and loving smile. Can you tell I am attached......lol
He has his daddy wrapped around his finger.

Tomorrow morning we take him to UK for his Heart Cath.

We will being praying for the sedation and procedure to go smoothly.


Hope everyone has a safe and wonderful Christmas holiday.


God Bless!


Love to all ~

Bradley, Miss, & Colt

Friday, October 24, 2008

Good news for Colt



Our appointment at the cardiologist included great news for Colt…..

Above is a picture with Colt and Dr. Cottrill, she is one of a kind. Everyone at her office is so sweet and caring, we are so thankful for her.

Colt is doing great and he is still in the stable category, his blood pressure was a little high since he has gained weight (13 pounds) and 24 ½ inches long. So all his meds were increased to adjust for his weight. Dr. Cottrill said to enjoy Christmas, Colt’s Cardiac Catheterization will be December 16th @ 8:00 am and surgery will be in the first week or two of January.


What a special Christmas this will be. Colt also got his 4 month shots, so were are getting out much more.


Many people who read our blog have asked how Mark and April’s, little boy Devon is doing. Dr. Cottrill goes to the UK Children’s Hospital every morning and at the end of our appointment Monday Bradley and I had asked how little Devon was doing just as we had each time. At our previous appointment last we had heard, he was hanging on.

I am sad to say that little Devon had passed since our last appointment.
Please keep Mark and April in you prayers, we all know that nothing right now can ease their pain or fill their lose, but I ask that everyone pray to give them comfort and strength.

The doctors has told Mark and April how serious Devon’s heart defects were and how complex the surgery was and so they decided to have little Devon baptized before he went into surgery. God always has a plan, as he did for this special little boy. Sometimes we may not understand it or agree with it, but we have to continue to have faith that over time he will open our eyes to understanding.

Our love, thoughts, and prayers go out to Mark and April.


Proverbs 3: 5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Amazing


What more is there to say other than AMAZING.

My mom has always said there is no love like the love you have for your children . We are all children of God and the love he has for each and every one of us is like no other. Being blessed with Colt in my life really put everything in perspective, I realized that I will sacrifice material possessions and all for him.
He has opened my eyes to strive at having a stronger relationship with God and I want Colt to grow up knowing what an amazing god we have, he who has showed us real sacrifice.

And by his wounds we are healed….

We go to Dr. Cottrill Monday for an Echo so hopefully we will know when his Cardiac Cath is and then from there we will know more about when his next surgery will be.

Again thanks for all the wonderful comments, thoughts and prayer, when I pray I give thanks for all the wonderful and strong people who have been there for us through it all.
Romans 8: 16-18
16. For his Holy Spirit speaks to us deep in our hearts and tells us that we are God's children.
17. And since we are his children, we will share his treasures ? for everything God gives to his Son, Christ, is ours, too. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering.
18. Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will give us later.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Big as a sack of taters!




Up to 10 pounds. Colt got his shots on the 19th, so tough he cried only for a minute and I picked him up and told him he was okay and he was fine. Bradley and my 9 year anniversary was last Thursday the 21 st and Colt also had a chest xray and a cardiologist appointment that same day, I was hoping for good news that he didn't have to go in next month for his 2ND surgery. Good news is what we got.

His Cardiologist, Dr. Cottrill (did I mention we absolutely love her) anyways I could go on and on about how wonderful she is, but she was really pleased with his chest x-ray. We do not have to go back till October 20th at that appointment Colt will be scheduled the following month for a Cardiac Catheterization which is a procedure used to examine blood flow to the heart and test how well the heart is pumping. A doctor will inserts a thin plastic tube into an artery or vein in his leg. From there it can be advanced into the chambers of the heart or into the coronary arteries. This test can measure blood pressure within the heart and how much oxygen is in the blood. It's also used to get information about the pumping ability of the heart muscle.




Once they review the results of this test, surgery will be scheduled within the next few weeks.


So his 2ND surgery will probably be around the end of November/ beginning of December.




We still continue to thank god every day four our little boy and give praise at the miracle we have been blessed to hold and love.










Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Colt update and first TV appearance

All is still going great in the Hardy household. As of Monday 8/4 Colt was up to 8 pounds and 14.5 ounces, talk about growing. Our first rounds of immunizations shots will be next weeks, we will be glad those started. One step closer for his cousins to finally see him for the first time.



We were asked to appear on News Channel 27 last Thursday August 7th with Colt's surgeon and the UK pediatric cardiologist chief. So Colt and I got to be on TV, we were told Bradley would get to be on too, but they did not setup enough chairs, I was a little upset that Bradley got all dressed up and looked so handsome and I did not get to show him off with Colt, after seeing the video wish I would have held Colt up so everyone could see his face and some of the funny expressions he makes and you can see just how much he looks like his Dad, so very handsome.

I made sure to record it to DVD so we can show Colt when he is older and he will know just how special he is. How exciting each day has been. :o)

Here is the link below
http://www.wkytarchives.com/ResultsServlet?station=WKYT&search_parameters=Melissa+Hardy&searchtype=archive

Friday, July 25, 2008

Smiles


Our little chunky monkey has gained 1.03 pounds since coming home now we are up to 8 pounds 4 ounces only 2 ounces away from our birth weight, so we are on the right track.

Sorry for everyone who has called and emailed and I haven't had a chance to get back to.

Those who have children know why, someone keeps me pretty busy and on my toes.
Colt loves to be held and he is trying to get caught up from the 3 weeks we could not hold him.

Everything is going really great, we are still being very cautious and limiting to where we take him, since his immune system is still weak and he doesn't get his immunization shots for another 2 1/2 weeks.

I am so overwhelmed at how so many people knowing us or not has reached out to us to lend their love, prayers, and support. If I mentioned names the list would be a mile long, but each of you know who you are. Sending hugs your way.

Many thanks to our friends, neighbors, and especially my family Mom, Dad, Shane, Stacy, & Lindsey.

Not to mention the awesome staff at UK Hospital: the talented surgeon Dr. Plunkett, his sweet & caring nurse Corinne, and all the nurses who took care of our little boy.

There is something else I would like to ask for all of those who are reading, please put Devon Watson in your prayers. While we were at the hospital we were so lucky to meet his parents Mark and April, Devon was born with 2 major congenital heart defect twice as complex as Colt's case and they did not catch these defects in utero. He is just a little older than Colt and also when through open heart surgery, unlike Colt's condition where Colt will only have to undergo 2 more surgeries, Devon will require surgery for the rest of his life. Colt and Devon both got their chest's closed up and then taken off the ventilator on the same day. Devon had to be put back on a few days later. Mark and April need to be lifted up the same as we did.

You know when I am holding Colt and he looks past me at something else and just has this most amazing smile, I could swear he sees angels, I have asked him a few times

Do you see Papaw Swayne (my mom's dad) and he just keeps smiling, I know that Papaw is still one of those angels watching over us and helping us move right along to get to the next surgery.

Love from the Hardy's
Bradley, Miss, & Colt

Thursday, July 17, 2008

1 Month Old


We have been so busy since getting him home. We have been to the cardiologist, seen his surgeon, and the pediatrician twice. Colt is doing really great, we are still working on getting him on a schedule and trying to get him to eat more, he has gained 6 ounces since we have been home so now he is up to 7 pounds 7 ounces. Not quite what he was a birth, but we will get there.
All the doctors have been pleased with his process and other than a few restrictions:
He is not allowed to be around any kids for 60 days since his immune system is suppressed and he does not get his immunization shots for another month or anyone who is sick or has been sick in the past 2 weeks.

To see him dream, to see him smile, to see him look right at you in wonder and to feel his heart beat is a blessing.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Going Home


Much to our surprise we all got to come home Monday as a family for the first time.
Colt was discharged from the Children’s hospital Monday - July 7, 2008 @ 3:30 pm.

Colt has not only amazed Bradley and me but he amazed the doctor. They never wanted to say just how good he was doing. I had told the surgeon all along that my boy was tough like his daddy and he proved it, but we all know that none of this would not have been possible without God carrying us through. What an awesome God he is!

I can not thank everyone enough for the warm and encouraging guestbook comments, prayers, and for asking other to pray. Every single one of your prayers helped not only Colt but they helped Bradley and me to stay strong and never let our faith fall.

So hard to believe by looking at Colt that just 2 weeks ago he underwent such an invasive open heart surgery. What a miracle!

Bradley and I are loving every minute of being parents, trying to learn all the new tricks to calming and pacifying him. Each day gets easier. We follow-up tomorrow with our pediatric cardiologist and pediatrician going to be a busy day.

Praises to god and thanks to everyone.

Love & God Bless to all!

Miss, Bradley, & Colt Samuel

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Doing GREAT!!!


WOW! Things are going so good. Thanks and Praises to God!

Colt...well he is the most amazing little boy ever! He has proven his amazing strength time and time again and he's done it again!

Last time I updated, we thought it would be a couple of days before he had his chest tubes out and the art line out and so on. On that next day his chest tubes came out! YAY!

On Friday, every line except for ART line and one IV line came out. Missy and Bradley got to hold their precious bundle of joy for the first time since he was born. Also, they got to change his diaper for the first time since before surgery.

On Saturday, his ART line came out. One more IV line to go and that will come out very soon. Since Colt is doing so good, they might get to come home sometime this week. WOW! YAY! :].

All the doctors are so pleased on how well he is doing. They have told Missy and Bradley that he is truly living up to his name he is a real "Hardy Boy". We knew our little Colt was a strong willed determined boy. He has truly showed all the doctors his strength.

Thanks so much for your thoughts and prayers and for the future prayers and thoughts. The power of prayer is truly amazing, its the best gift to give and recieve. Colt has proven that with God and the amazing power of prayer miracles do happen. God has so greatly blessed us and the greatest of all is Colt Samuel Hardy. What an amazing little boy he is and the strength he has proven to have!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Taking it Out


July 2, 2008. I have wonderful news!

Colt is doing GREAT! He is completely off the ventilator and they took out his NG feeding tube. Amazing! By the end of the week they hope to take out his chest tubes. And today they plan on taking out his cathader.

How amazing is that! God is so amazing in his works. And all praises go up to him!
Colt is an amazing strong little boy as I have said many times before!

Thank you for all your prayers and thoughts and for the future ones to come! God Bless You All!

Closing Up


July 1, 2008 Dr. Plunkett decided it was time to close up Colt's chest. All of the swelling had went down and he looked to be back to normal size. He has lost a little weight going from 8 lbs. 6oz. to a little over 7 lbs. but they have assured us that when he gets back to breast milk he'll gain his weight back.

Before they came in to close him up, we got to go back and see him. They had lowered his oxygen percentage so he had a little blue tint, but they told us that it was normal. He looked so small and so full of pure innocent but at the same time I saw this child of God who had so much strength and determination that he would not give up on anything and know that he is just two weeks old completely amazes me. Seeing Colt is seeing a true blessing and he is such a picture to prove how amazing God's work and power really is.

We went to the waiting room as they began to prepare for the closing of his chest. After waiting for a couple of hours Dr. Plunkett's nurse came in with an update. Her news was good, all was going very good. They got a later thought then what they wanted but they were almost done. She told us that in about 30 minutes Dr. Plunkett would be finished and in about an hour Missy and Bradley would get to go back and see their strong amazing little boy.

The time came and Missy and Bradley went back to see Colt. God answered another prayer and gave us another blessing with all going good with Colt getting stitched up. Missy and Bradley Came back and Bradley took My mom (Kim) and his mom (Bonnie) back to see him. They returned saying wonderful things about how he looked so great and how his color came back. Then I went back to visit him. He looked great his color really had came back, he was still sleeping but again as I looked at that precious little boy I saw God's amazing work and the greatest form of strength in a little baby boy.

They told Missy and Bradley that within the next few days they would be weening him off of his ventilator, feeding tube, chest drainage tubes, and medicines. And hopefully in about two weeks our greatest blessing from God would get to come home with his mommy and daddy.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

The First Surgery



On June 25, 2008 Colt had his first surgery. Missy and Bradley Went the night before so they could feed him his last feeding before surgery, then returned later a 4:30 a.m to stay with him. Before surgery one of our pastors Issac Whitt came and they prayed over Colt, then the anesthesiologist came in and ask if it would be alright to pray over him and Missy said that would be wonderful. I think that, that was completely wonderful for him to do that.

They took Colt back to the O.R. around 7:15 a.m to begin the surgery. We all sat in the waiting room patiently waiting for an update and praying. Then Dr. Plunketts nurse came in and talked to Missy and Bradley. She had good news, all was going well and Colt was doing very good so far in surgery. We were all very happy to hear the good news of how well he was doing. She told us that she would call back later with another update.

Patiently waiting and praying through the day the phone in the waiting room rang. My Dad picked it up and they asked for the Hardy family. He handed the phone to Missy and we recived our second update. All went well, they warmed Colt's body tempeture back up and were taking him off of the bypass machine. praises to God were sent up after hearing how well all went. Colt is such a strong child and his parents are so very strong as well.

After surgery, they were rolling him back to the PIC unit and Missy and Bradley got to see their strong hansome boy. While they were getting Colt situated in his new room, Dr. Plunkett and his nurse came in to talk to Missy and Bradley. Dr. Plunkett was very satisfied with getting to preform the surgery he planned on. All went great during the operation and Colt did excellent during all of the surgery. We were all greatly appreicated for all they had done and Missy and Bradley were so greatful for having been blessed so much and soon getting to see their son.
After Dr. Plunkett left the anesthesiologist came in with more good reports on how well he did. We all knew that little Colt was a strong, tough little boy.

And so many thanks For all the prayers and thoughts for Colt and his family. We ask for you all to continuely pray and keep little Colt in your thoughts.

Through Gods love and the power of prayer we will be bringing Colt home.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Surgery info & Prayer Request




I am finally getting to update the blog. So much thanks to Lindsey for keeping everyone updated and replying to emails. She did an excellent job.

Mommy thought she was going to die during labor pretty funny. If it was not for Bradley coaching me through it I would not have made it. We had some wonderful nurses and doctors. One nurse in particular I would like to say a special thanks to is Allie Gallio.

Allie was my nurse all day during labor and was supposed to work 7 am – 7 pm, but she stayed until Colt was brought into this world and helped Bradley coach me through it. Not sure what I what I would have done with her help. She was wonderful. She is moving to Florida in a few days. UK is losing one of the best nurses I have ever met. Thanks again to, Allie!

Colt is definitely worth all of it, after it was all over and I saw his face I forgot all about the pain. I thought I prepared myself, but there aren't words to describe the emotions Bradley and I have been going through. The whole birthing and becoming a parent experience has brought up closer than I ever thought a husband and wife could be.

Bradley and I are staying in a room in the St. Agnes house which is only 3 blocks from the hospital, we went home Thursday night after I was discharged from the hospital. Bradley and I cried all night, it killed us to leave him. It just did not feel like home without our boy..

It is so hard for Bradley and I to put into words how this sweet little boy has changed our lives other than he is the absolute best thing we have ever done. Every time we have gotten to see him it has been an absolute blessing. They have let us change and feed him several times. Bradley is much better at both than I am. He is so wonderful with Colt, you see the love in Bradley eyes every time he looks at Colt and my heart just melts.

Surgery is scheduled for (Wednesday) 6/25/08 tomorrow morning @ 7:15 am. We ask that everyone please pray for Colt and lift him up. Pray for the all the doctors and nurses operating on Colt. I am faithful in my beliefs that God is carrying our little boy in his arms and he will not let him go, he is giving us strength to be strong for Colt.

Thanks for all thoughts and prayers and ask that everyone please continue.

~ Love
Miss

Friday, June 20, 2008

Colt Samuel - 3 Days Old




The doctors have decided to wait until Wednesday to do the surgery. They want to make sure that Colt's levels are alright and that everything is okay before they do the surgery. But he is doing very good. Missy was discharged from the hospital last night, her and Bradley went to see their new Son in the NIC Unit before going home for some rest. Today they returned to be with him and will be staying in a hotel close to the hospital. Its truly amazing how strong they are. Missy, Bradley, and baby Colt. Its also amazing how far they have came along in technology and medicine. just about a month and half ago a little girl was born at UK with HLHS. She had the same doctors and the same surgeon as Colt will have. She had her first surgery about a week in an half after she was born and got dismissed from the hospital yesterday to go home. That's completely wonderful and it gives so much more comfort. God has been so good to us, after we found about Colts heart, Missy and Bradley were either going to have to go to the University of Michigan or the University of Cincinnati, but then UK received Doctor Mark Plunkett, who preforms the surgerys Colt needs for his heart. Truly that's was a major blessing! Then Colt had no other complications. Now he has been welcomed into this world and is doing good. With God nothing is impossible and he will never let go. Through our times of need he carries us and he is one to never drop or let any of his children down. We all thing God everyday for the amazing blessings he has blessed us with. Our greatest blessing is having Colt welcomed into our family! God Bless!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Baby Colt Samuel Hardy






Here are more Pictures of the new precious baby boy!

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He was taken to the infant icu Last night and is doing good. They will do the surgery on either friday or monday depending on how is does. We aprericate all your prayers and the prayers to come. Thank you all again. God Bless!


Colt Samuel Hardy 06-17-08 8lbs. 6oz.







Today at 9:26p.m Colt Samuel Hardy Was welcomed into the world. with a big cry heard through the doors we all let a sigh of relief, when the nurse gave us a thumbs up to a new baby in our family. After all day in labor he finally decided to come. The best present papaw could have on his birthday was to get to see his new grandson. Missy did an amazing job, she is such a trooper. and bradley was amazing in holding her hand through it all. It really paid off when they got to see our new precious and beautiful addition. God has greatly blessed this family and we are so thankful to have little Colt Samuel in our lives.He weighed 8lbs. 6oz. a perfect little big bundle of amazing joy. Missy and Bradley were exghausted but getting to meet their new son was the best of all. Seeing this wonderful child of God made it well worth the wait. We all truly appericated all your prayers through all this and appericate the prayers to come. I know that God has held their hand through all of this and will continue and not let go. Even though Colt is my nephew i have to say he is the most beautiful little boy ever. And he is spoiled already :]. He is a trooper and very strong just like his amazing parents. (Ill keep updating on whats going on.) God Bless!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

38 ½ Weeks

We went to the doctor High Risk OB/GYN yesterday and to Dr. Cottrill our pediatric cardiologist today

OB update
1 cm dilated and 50 % effaced and Colt is measuring at 7 pounds and 12 ounces. Dr. Hansen wanted to induce me Wednesday or Thursday of this week and I starting freaking out, I said I am not ready yet. How crazy is that I really wanted to go in labor on my own but it may not happen so, we compromised and agreed that if I do not go into labor on my own by next Monday 6/16, then I will go into the hospital Tuesday morning 6/17 to be induced which is my dad’s birthday – he is so thrilled and does not mind sharing his birthday with his grandson a bit. So unless Colt decides to come on his own, we are going to meet our son next Tuesday.

Cardiologist update
We got good news today, if all goes well after he is born we will get to feed him breast milk through a bottle after they take him to the NICU and he is given the prostaglandin drug and he is stable. Our pediatric cardiologist said the baby girl that was born 2 weeks ago with the same heart defect is doing much better feeding and after surgery since feeding through a bottle and not an IV or feeding tube after she was born, she said some reason babies will forget how to feed and swallow if they are not taught right after birth. When Dr. Cottrill had told us about this little girl at our last visit I had prayed that she would be strong and come through surgery successfully and she did. The little girl is doing remarkably well post-op, that has really raised my hope and lifted my faith.
God is an amazing god.

"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."Psalm 147:3

I will update if there is anymore news before Tuesday :o)

Thursday, May 22, 2008

36 Week update


Colt is estimated to be weighing it at 6 pound 13 ounces. How amazing! We were told by the surgeon that the smallest baby he did surgery on was 5 ½ pounds so I am glad they are thinking Colt it bigger. I was hoping for an 8 pound baby, for some reason in my mind the bigger he is the better chance he has during surgery. I finally picked out a middle name. Samuel will be his middle name.

Samuel has many different meaning ranging from God’s Heart to asked of God. I read the below bible verse and it was my sign that Samuel is to be our boy’s middle name.
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1 Samuel 27-28
"I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him,
So now I give him over to the Lord.
For his whole life, he will be given over to the Lord."
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We decided to have Colt baptized before he goes into surgery. James Williams at First Fire has agreed to baptize him. Bless him! To me baptizing him is a sign of our devotion to God that we are going to raise our son knowing and believing in him.




Bradley and I have been pretty busy. They are having me do an NST stress tests twice a week, going to the doctor once a week, and seeing the pediatric cardiologist every other week, seems like the time is flying by, our little boy with be here before we know it.

Last week we toured the NICU and PICU at UK. I thought I was so prepared, I read all the information that other heart moms provided and looked at pictures of what to expect to see. Unfortunately, this is one of the times in life you can never be prepared for. I saw 2 babies in the NICU both hooked up to ventilators and I just lost it. It was overwhelming. As always Bradley was there to calm and comfort me. I really think the Lord has worked through him to always lift me up when I am down. I pray that I can show the same strength when he is down.

Bradley is not only an amazing husband, but he will be a wonderful father.
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Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.
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Thursday, May 1, 2008

Colt's Special Room


Here is the Mural that is on Colt's wall, it was painted by JJ Crouch a special friend I work with.
I was so pleased when she brought up the idea, she said he needed something special in his room and I agreed and here is her work of art. Sorry my camera doesn't take the best pictures, but it is truly amazing. And yes - there is a John Deere tractor in the picture....lol
At first when we found out about Colt's heart defect I was afraid to decorate his room, but then
I realized I had to have special room just for his ready to come home to.
When that day gets here it will be so wonderful.
~~~~~~~~~~Special Thanks to JJ Crouch on this amazing Mural! ~~~~~~~~~

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Meeting the Surgeon


Meeting the Surgeon

Bradley and I met with Dr. Mark Plunkett and his nurse Korinne Callihan at UK yesterday.

We were both very impressed with Dr. Plunkett, he was very kind and he thoroughly explained the initial open heart surgery the (Norwood procedure) as well as the 2nd (Glenn) and 3rd (Fontan) surgery.

Here are the some of the Questions and answers we asked.
Q1. How soon after Colt’s born will he go in for Surgery?
A1. Colt will have surgery within his first week.

Q.2. What will happen as soon as he is born?
A2. We will only get to see him for a few minutes before he is taken to the NICU, once there they will administer a drug called prostaglandin through a catheter that will be placed in the umbilical blood vessel this will prevent the ductus arteriosus from closing. He will be monitored and have several tests, like another echo etc. Once he is ready they will take him into surgery,

Q3. How long does the reconstructive surgery take once he is on the Heart – Bypass machine
A3. Dr. Plunkett is able to complete the surgery in 30 - 35 minutes

Q4. How long have you been performing this surgical procedure?
A4. For about 15 years.

Q5. How many patients have not made through surgery or have passed away after surgery?
A5. About 10 - 15 % have not made it through due to various complications.


Q6. What are some of the complications?

A6. Ask with any open heart surgery there are many different complications that can occur, the patient not being able to be taken off the heart lung bypass machine, kidney failure, a bleed in the brain, problems with the patient not responding the the redirection of the blood flood with the initial reconstruction of the heart.

Q7. How old is the longest living patient to have survived all 3 procedures?
A7. So far the oldest living patient to undergo all three procedures is 38 years old and he this person is still alive.

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I know in my heart that our little boy is a fighter and a survivor and through god all things are possible to those who believe.

Friday, April 25, 2008

32 Week update



Talk about showing off, our little boy is weighing in @ about 4 pounds and 4 ounces. He is still looking like his daddy, little defined nose and mouth ( in this picture he looks like his it frowning).
He also had big feet, the ultrasound tech measured one of his feet
and it is 2 1/2 inches long, she put BIG FOOT on the ultrasound picture ~ something else he got from Bradley since I have really small feet.

He does have his mommies chubby cheeks. Only 8 weeks left to go and we will get to meet this little boy who loves to kick me when I am trying to get to sleep, but I don't mind it a bit.

Bradley and I were laying in bed the other night chatting and laughing and I guess he liked hearing both of our voices he was kicking like crazy, guess trying to join in on the conversation.

Everything is going good, I will be glad to take off the 2 weeks before our due date to try to get everything ready and together.

Next week will be a busy week, Tuesday we go back to the Pediatric Cardiologist then after our visit get to meet the surgeron who will be performing Colt's surgery and ask him questions, then we visit the High-risk OB doctor that afternoon. I will be sure to post an update then.

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He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.2 Corinthians 1:4, NLTView in context

Friday, April 4, 2008

7 month Update

Our boy is growing; they estimated 3 pounds and 1 ounce. WOW. His heart is still the same; so far it is not any worse which is so wonderful news.

I still pray for a miracle, but I am so thankful for the blessings god has already given us.

I gained a little more than normal this past month and my sugar was above the normal on the glucose screening test so I have to fast again Monday and go back for the 3 hour test. I thought I was starving at yesterday appointment from fasting, Monday will be worse, I am sure I will get a few extra kicks from Colt wanting some food….lol

We follow up with the Pediatric Cardiologist Tuesday April 15th, hopefully we will find out when we get to meet the surgeon and schedule time to take a tour of the birthing center and NIC unit.


Again thanks for the cards, emails, and adding us to prayer lists. Bradley, Colt and I are so very lucky to have supportive friends and family.


God Bless!


You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny.Psalm 73:24, NLT



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Good news no gestational diabetes, still need to watch what I eat though :o)

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Doctor Appointment Updates


Tuesday 3/04/08



Bradley took me to our 6 month checkup appointments yesterday, we saw the High Risk OBGYN and our Pediatric Cardiologist.
He is growing…..and up to 1 pound and 10 ounces…….Yeah! No bad news today from either doctor today, so we were both relieved.
His heart beat is still strong 146/bpm. We get an ultrasound now every time we go to the doctor and have never seen a 3-4/D ultrasound and the tech did one we got a 2 good pictures of his little face. He is adorable…….just adorable, he has the cutest little nose. I think he looks like Bradley. Hopefully we will get an even better picture next month when we go.





Thanks again for all the prayers!!!






He will feed his flock like a shepherd. He will carry the lambs in his arms, holding them close to his heart. He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young. Isaiah 40:11, NLT

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

First Fire – Going to the Altar

I have been going to First United Methodist’s First Fire @ Movies 9; they have a worship service from 9 am – 10 am on Sunday mornings.
The Pastor is James Williams, who is excellent, every week that I have attended service and listened to him preach no matter what the message is, it always applies to my life. A new worship experience is the motto and it is so true. It is a comfortable atmosphere - you can wear jeans – you don’t have to be in a church to worship the lord and First Fire proves that point. Anyone who is not dedicated to a church or feels like there is something more you need.
I invite you to come just once they have a wonderful band and perform a skit as well as a sermon, you can feel the energy of God in this place and it is still with you once you leave and head home.

I started attending First Fire in November before I knew anything was wrong with Colt, my sister Stacy invited me to go, she said you have to come just once that’s all I ask. Bless her for asking me! The first time I went it was a spiritual uplifting and awakening experience and it has been that way ever since. It only took that one time and I felt it, the faith, the love, the presence of God.

After I found out about Colt’s condition, I knew I had the love and support of our family and friends, but I needed something else.

One Sunday @ First Fire when James asked for those who are lost or need prayer to come to the front row that was used as an altar, I humbly walked up to the front, for the first time in my life I was not ashamed to go to the altar to ask the Lord for help. I was going up for Bradley, me, and for our baby boy Colt.

My dad walked with me to the front, so thankful that he did because I was scared. A wonderful member of the church named Bill prayed for us as well as James the preacher. I saw Bill the other day at service and he said that Colt and I have been heavy on his heart and that he prays for us daily. You know God exists when people you have met only once or have known a lifetime put you in their prayers.

We are so blessed!

Bradley and my cousin on his side (Carolyn) sent me a message with theses verses and said they are Tough words but they have carried me thru everything tough and also everything wonderful in my life!!

Thanks Carolyn!!! I adore you and am so thankful to call you family and a true friend.

I Thessalonians 5: 16, 17, 18.

It is tough to do what God asks of us sometimes. But you already do what He tells us in the verses. Be joyful always....Pray Continuously.........Give THANKS in ALL circumstances, for this is God's will for you.....
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Special Thank you to all our friends and family who have read our blog and posted comments.
It is because of you we are going to make it through this!
Your prayers are so appreciated.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Mom

I received this email from a friend I thought it was really cute


A baby asked God, 'They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?'God said, 'Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you.'The child further inquired, 'But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy.'God said, 'Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you and you will feel your angel's love and be very happy.'Again the child asked, 'And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?' God said, 'Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.''And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?' God said, 'Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray.''Who will protect me?' God said, 'Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life.''But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.' God said, 'Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you.'At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, 'God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name.'

God said, You will simply call her, 'Mom.'

Monday, February 11, 2008

A Night of Hope - Cincinnati, OH


Sunday 2/10/08


My mom, dad, and little sister got tickets to see Joel Osteen and invited me to come. He is such an amazing and inspirational speaker. I feel like I was supposed to be there. One of the thinks Joel talked about that stuck with me was Thoroughbred horses and how a little Colt may come out looking weak, but he is a winner he came from a long line of champions and that he is strong and we are all made from God. As he said that my mom, dad, and little sis(Lindsey) looked at me and smiled. I was meant to be in that very place that night and hear those words so I would know to look to God for strength and hope. I will continue to be strong for my little Colt.


* With God all things are possible.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Back to the High – Risk OBGYN visit


Thursday 2/7/08
We followed back up with Dr. Campbell today, Bradley could not go so I asked my mom to go with me, and we received some good news!
The amnio results came back normal, stating: No evidence of clinically significant numerical or structural chromosome abnormalities.
Thank Heavens!
I felt guilty that the results were normal, since there are other mothers who get the opposite results. I was so thankful. My mom got to see the ultrasound and Colt was showing off and moving like crazy, his heart beat is still strong 148/bpm and he has gained 4 ounces now weighing approximately 14 ounces ( 2 oz. more than a canned pop) lol.

Dr. Campbell said they are still going to continue to monitor Colt closely for congestive heart failure since as he gets bigger his heart will demand more blood and work harder. Even though I did not want to hear that part of it and it hurt to have my mom hear it too. I said my faith is strong and we are going to make it through this.

Next appointments: Dr. Campbell and Dr. Cottrill 3/4/08.

And so our journey begins…..

* I remembering when we found we were pregnant I never prayed to god for a healthy baby because I did not want to be selfish, I did ask God to bless us with a baby that was healthy as it can be. For this I am grateful, he is already a miracle.


About Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS)

Resource: http://www.cincinnatichildrens.org/health/heart-encyclopedia/anomalies/hlhs.htm
What is Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome?
Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS) is one of the most complex cardiac defects seen in the newborn and remains probably the most challenging to manage of all congenital heart defects. It is one of a group of cardiac anomalies that can be grouped together under the description "single ventricle" defects.
In a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, all of the structures on the left side of the heart (the side which receives oxygen-rich blood from the lungs and pumps it out to the body) are severely underdeveloped.
The mitral and aortic valves are either completely "atretic" (closed), or they are very small. The left ventricle itself is tiny, and the first part of the aorta is very small, often only a few millimeters in diameter.
This results in a situation where the left side of the heart is completely unable to support the circulation needed by the body's organs, though the right side of the heart (the side that delivers blood to the lungs) is typically normally developed.
Blood returning from the lungs to the left atrium must pass through an atrial septal defect (ASD) to the right side of the heart.
The right ventricle must then do a "double duty" of pumping blood both to the lungs (via the pulmonary artery) and out to the body (via a patent ductus arteriosus (PDA)). The patent ductus arteriosus, a normal structure in the fetus, is often the only pathway through which blood can reach the body from the heart. When the ductus arteriosus begins to close, as it typically does in the first days of life, the blood flow to the body will severely diminish resulting in dangerously low blood flow to vital organs and leading to shock. Without treatment, Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome is uniformly fatal, often within the first hours or days of life.
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Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome signs and symptoms
As mentioned above, infants with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome can develop life-threatening shock when the ducutus arteriosus begins to close. In most cases, however, the ductus arteriosus is widely open at the time of birth, supplying the blood flow to the body and babies may not be diagnosed right away. As the ductus arteriosus closes, which it typically will in most infants in the first hours or days of life, the perfusion to the body is seriously diminished and shock rapidly ensues.
Newborns with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome will typically have lower-than-normal oxygen saturations. This is because all of the blood from the lungs (the oxygenated "red" blood) mixes together in the single right ventricle before being pumped out of the lungs and body. Cyanosis, therefore, may be the first clue to the presence of a serious underlying cardiac condition. Respiratory distress (difficult or fast breathing) is often present because the lungs will tend to receive an excessively large amount of blood flow. There is often no or just a faint murmur present in newborns with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome.
The pulses may be very weak in all extremities on examination depending on flow through the ducturs arteriosus. Lethargy, poor feeding, and worsening respiratory distress may be seen as the ducturs arteriosus closes. Ultimately, severe shock resulting in seizures, renal failure, liver failure, and worsening cardiac function may develop. Whether these problems are reversible depends on both the severity and the duration of shock.
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How Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome is diagnosed
This heart defect is one of the most readily diagnosed on fetal echocardiograms and is one of the most common cardiac defects picked up on screening obstetrical ultrasounds. Such early diagnosis of the anomaly allows for prompt intervention for stabilization at the time of birth so that severe shock may be avoided.
Planning to deliver such an infant at a hospital capable of aggressive newborn resuscitation is important in improving the chances for a good outcome.
Echocardiography is the principal method of diagnosing Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. It can give detailed information of the anatomy of the various cardiac structures affected in Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, as well as important information about the function of the right ventricle and its valves the size of the atrial septal defect (important for blood mixing) and the size of the patent ductus arteriosus.
Cardiac catheterization is almost never needed for newborns with this heart defect as part of the initial evaluation due to the high risks in an often unstable newborn. Catheterization, though, does play an important role in the evaluation of the cardiopulmonary function and anatomy in older children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome while planning for later stages in the treatment.
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Hypoplastic Left Syndrome treatment
The management of the newborn with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome can be divided into the initial stabilization period and the operative / post-operative period.
Even while diagnostic tests may be going on, the rapid stabilization of infants with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome must begin as soon as the diagnosis is suspected.
Catheters are placed, usually in the umbilical blood vessels, which allow medications to be given and blood to be obtained for testing. An infusion of prostaglandin, a medication that prevents the patent ductus arteriosus from closing, is begun, thus maintaining the pathway for blood to reach the body from the right ventricle.
Even though the infant may have low oxygen saturations, supplemental oxygen is avoided since it tends to promote more blood flow to the lungs which may steal blood flow from the body and place excessive demands on the already stressed single right ventricle.
Manipulations of medications and respiratory treatments (including possible mechanical ventilation) are performed to optimally balance the flow of blood to the body and the flow of blood to the lungs.
Close monitoring is essential to detect any organ dysfunction and maintain cardiopulmonary stability because infants with this anomaly may be very unpredictable and undergo quite sudden changes.
There are essentially three treatment options that have been proposed for children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome.
In the past, due to poor outcomes with available treatments at that time, no treatment was often recommended. Today it is rare that a family may choose not to treat a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, though in cases when the infant is unable to be satisfactorily stabilized no treatment may be advised.
Cardiac transplantation in the newborn period is performed as primary treatment for Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome at some centers in this country. While transplantation has the advantage of replacing the very abnormal heart of a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome with one of normal structure, this treatment is limited by the scarcity of newborn organs available for transplantation and the life-long need for anti-rejection therapy. Additionally, although outcomes for transplantation continue to improve, and the incidence of rejection is lowest in patients transplanted as newborns, the average life span of the transplanted heart is limited (currently less than 15 years).
The most commonly pursued treatment for Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome is "staged reconstruction" in which a series of operations, usually three, are performed to reconfigure the child's cardiovascular system to be as efficient as possible despite the lack of an adequate left ventricle. These surgeries do not correct the lesion, and are instead considered "palliative".
The first operation in the staged approach is known as the Norwood operation and is typically performed in the first week of life. With the Norwood operation, the right ventricle become the systemic or main ventricle pumping to the body. A "new" or "neo" aorta is made from part of the pulmonary artery and the original, tiny aorta, which is reconstructed / enlarged to provide blood flow to the body. Finally, to provide blood flow to the lungs, a small tube graft is placed either from an artery to the lung vessels (called a modified Blalock-Taussig shunt) or from the right ventricle to the lung vessels (called a Sano modification). Because of the extensive reconstruction of the aorta that must be done, this operation is one of the most challenging heart surgeries in pediatrics.
The subsequent operations in the staged reconstruction plan are the bi-directional Glenn procedure, typically done at 3 to 6 months of age, and the Fontan operation, typically done in children older than 2 or 3 years. These operations are described in more detail in the Heart Encyclopedia chapter on "Single Ventricle Cardiac Anomalies."
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Results with staged reconstruction for children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome / Norwood operation
The Norwood operation is the most complex and highest risk procedure in the sequence of staged reconstruction for Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. Current management at major pediatric heart centers has resulted in survival rates of 75 percent or better.
The recovery period in the hospital following the Norwood operation is often unpredictable and complicated, averaging about 3 to 4 weeks. A small percentage of patients who leave the hospital may continue to experience significant problems in the first months of life.
Occasionally, the right ventricle does not function well following the Norwood operation and in some case, cardiac transplantation may need to be considered.
If a child with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome reaches the time for the second stage (about 4 to 6 months of age) without major complications, the survival through the Glenn and Fontan operations are much better, exceeding 90 percent with current methods.
Almost all children with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome will continue to need some cardiac medications to maximize the efficient function of their heart, and all will require regular periodic follow-up visits with their cardiologist to evaluate their cardiac function and detect late complications such as arrhythmias.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

The Pediatric Cardiologist

Tuesday 2/5/08
The day came to visit the pediatric cardiologist and I was still hopeful that today we would get better news. Again there was the scared and helpless feeling when we entered the specialists office, Bradley was right there by my side as he had been from the beginning of all this, he went ahead and went into the ultrasound room as I had to make one last stop to the potty since a pregnant woman often times becomes a member of the FBI aka(Federal Bathroom Inspector) and has to pee at least twice at every place she goes. Bradley was already seated in the room as I made my way in and I noticed this little old lady in a wheel chair, I was thinking to myself, did they put us in the wrong room, nope this was our pediatric cardiologist, Dr. Cottrill who is probably in her early 70’s. She was warm and sincere as she watched the ultrasound and studied his heart and how it was functioning, I could see the look of concern in her eyes. Bradley wiped the tears from my eyes as they finished the ultrasound and fetal echocardiogram. I sat up and Dr. Cottrill said that Colt has a congenital heart defect called Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS). I had already done some research and I remembered reading about this defect and was so relieved when Dr. Campbell said Aortic Stenosis and not Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome since the information I read on (HLHS) was even more serious then the Aortic Stenosis. As Dr. Cottrill explained the defect and explained that there are 3 reconstructive open heart surgeries that are done to redirect the blood flow using the Right Ventricle of the heart as the main supply to the body. She continued to explain that the 1st surgery will be done right after the baby is born, then the 2nd around 6 months of age, and the 3rd ranging from 1 ½ - 3 years old. I was trying to let it all sink in that instead of our little Colt having 1 surgery on his heart is going to have to have 3. I asked where will he being having surgery thinking it would be in another state.

Dr. Cottrill said that UK just recently got a surgeon who transferred from California who specializes in this surgery…..Amen some good news, if all goes well we won’t have to be away from home to have the baby. She said when I get further along we will meet with the surgeon and he will explain everything more in detail and that she will see us again in a month to monitor the babies progress. After we got out of the pediatric cardiologist office Bradley called his mom and I called my mom and we both explained what was going on and the news of the UK surgeon who recently transferred to the hospital who specializes in this surgery.


*God works in mysterious ways.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

High – Risk OBGYN visit

Wednesday 1/23/08
They got us an appointment to the high-risk doctor the next morning. Bradley and I went hoping for some positive news and that is was all a mistake. We got called into the Ultrasound exam room and the Ultrasound tech went through the normal ultrasound taking pictures of all the organs, etc and labeling them and then they looked at the heart again, you could see on the ultrasound and using the Doppler that part the left part of his heart was only getting a small amount of blood and only sporadically. Dr. Campbell came and was looking at the ultrasound of the heart and the Doppler and explaining that all chambers of the heart should show the same amount of activity and blood flow and in our case the left ventricle of the heart he diagnosed him with a condition called Aortic Stenosis and explained that if the baby can make it to full term that he will need to have surgery on his heart as soon as he is born and that we might have to have the baby in Cincinnati or Michigan where the surgeons who specialize in this type of surgery on newborns is located. He assured us this was not anything Bradley or I done to Dr. Campbell suggested that we go ahead and have an amniocentesis to determine if there were any other abnormalities. He explained the risk with the amnio and we agreed that we wanted to be prepared if there was something else wrong. I figured Bradley and I would be sent to the hospital for the test, but to my surprise just minutes after we decided on the test they laid me back on the exam bed and cleaned my stomach with iodine and continued to numb my stomach where they were going to insert the 7.5 cm needle. Bradley stood beside me and held one of my hands and gently brush my hair away from my face with the other.
I did not watch the amnio needle go into my stomach, instead I felt the stinging pinch watched on the ultrasound monitor and saw the needle piercing through my abdomen, when the procedure was almost done I saw our baby boy’s little hand like waving on the monitor. In that moment nothing else matter except him and as strong as I wanted to be I couldn’t stop the tears from falling. We were told the that the results would be back within a few weeks. They instructed me to go home to rest and take it easy the remainder of the day since I could experience some cramping from the procedure. After we left the doctor’s office I called one Shannon- one of my peers on my team to ask if she could cover for me. When she answered I could barely get out the words to say anything except ask that she cover for me the rest of the day. She could hear the hurt in my voice as she said Missy, “You don’t have to say anything, I will cover you the rest of the day no problem, when you want to talk I am here.” In her not only do have a great co-worker, but a wonderful and dear friend. Already I was blessed with the supportive chain desperately needing.

We got home from the doctors office and I knew I would have to start making phone calls and trying to re-explain all the information the doctor provided about our little boys condition. I told Bradley he could go onto work, because I knew he needed to stay busy and focused - that is how he is built.

First call was to my mom and then Bradley’s mom and I tried to explain the best I could of what they found was wrong with the baby’s heart and that he was going to need surgery as soon as he is born, in additional to we may have to travel to another state to deliver the baby depending on where the surgeon is who can perform the surgery. Both my mom and his mom stayed positive while they were on the phone with me which made it a little easier and they offered prayer and support. Next call was to my sister(Stacy) who is a proud mother of 2 children a girl Allie and a boy Scott, she cried with me and said we can’t lose our faith God is going to help you and Bradley thru this and watch over your special baby boy. She asked if I needed anything and I said I would like the company and to see the kids, they always cheer me up. She came out and visited with the kids, my mom and little sis (Lindsey) came out, and then Bradley’s mom and dad stopped by, it felt nice to have the company, we all watched the ultrasound video and they saw him moving around and saw the imaging of his heart and where it was not working the way is it supposed to.

When Bradley got home that night, I insisted we needed to give our little boy at least a first name and he picked out Colt, I said Colt it is. Our special little Colt.

I knew going to work was going the next day was going be hard, since not only is being pregnant an emotional roll-coaster but having complications just doubles it.
Everyone at worked asked out everything went and I did my best to hold back the tears, I explained what was going on that that we would hopefully know more when we see the pediatric Cardiologist.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

The Ultrasound


All night long before our appointment I had been so nervous thinking what if something is wrong am I strong enough to handle it, can Bradley. I had asked Bradley if something was wrong with our baby could he still love it, he said there was no decision to it, he would love it no matter what.

Tuesday - Jan. 22, 2008
Bradley picked me up from work this morning to take me to our Doctor’s appointment 18 weeks ultrasound to see how the baby is developing and hopefully get to sneak a peek to see if we will be the proud parents of a son or daughter. Bradley thinks it is a boy and I was thinking I am having a girl.

We got to the doctor’s office and we called back to the Exam room to start the ultrasound. The ultrasound tech asked if we wanted to know the sex of the baby and I said yes. She quickly moved the ultrasound device and there is was, no mistakes. I said it that what I think it is and she said yes it’s a boy, I looked at Bradley and said Daddy, you got your boy! Bradley was smiling from ear to ear. We got to see all the organs, see and hear his heartbeat, see him move and suck his thumb, I was starting to feel relief. Then I notice how the tech kept going back to the heart, I was like everything is okay, then the doctor came in and kept going back to the heart also. Once the ultrasound was finished Bradley and I were instructed to go into the chat room. The doctor came in and said that he was concerned about our little boys heart, he said the left part of his heart is not functioning the way it is supposed to and that he is referring us to a High risk OB-GYN for a level 2 ultrasound with Doppler to see the baby’s blood flow more in-depth .

My heart stopped, it felt like my world just fell apart, I couldn’t stop myself from crying. Bradley was holding me telling me it was all going to be okay and maybe the ultrasound was wrong.

I went back to work and everyone was asking what we are having I just broke down and said I could not talk about it right now and I needed to call my mom first.
I knew she would be waiting by the phone for my call as she thought it was a girl too. My little sister answered the phone and she said it is a boy or girl, I said a boy and I was still crying, she told my mom it’s a boy and handed the phone to my mom and said she is crying I think something is wrong when my mom answered I could not say anything but sob, she said, “Miss, what’s wrong?” I finally was able to stop crying for a little bit to mumble, “ it’s his heart they think there is something wrong with it, we are going to a high risk doctor in Lexington tomorrow. She said oh, Miss it is going to okay no matter what. We will all pray for him.


* So amazing how you can love someone so much that you have never met.